#Thoughts

Duhaai

i rlly rlly rlly want this guy to fuck me but he just won’t. i’ve made it clear i want him to and he just won’t. he lives in another state but i’d be willing to visit, how horrendous do i have to be for him to just not want me at all? God damn im going crazy

the vibe I bring to the party is melancholy

Ghibli movies typa night

When i say ownership, or “mine”, or belonging, Americans assume material possession or control. I mean kinship and responsibility, a connection, ties. Some things are hard to transfer through languages.

hmm it’s so much easier to take care of myself at my bf’s place hmmmm

The shit you allowing I could never go for.

ended a 3-year relationship where there was absolutely nothing going on in the bedroom, got called a disgusting slut and a whore and a garbage piece of trash and all the worst name-calling i could ever even think of and i said i didnt let it get to me but it did and now i feel so dirty and disgusting and this guy not wanting to simply fucking BANG me is the last straw, good lord no one even knows the state my head is in rn

why did i stop smoking my weed at home this is great

the devil couldn’t reach me so he made me unable to make fake scenarios for someone who loves to dream (i have aphantasia)

“Jai Ho” Slumdog Millionaire OST (Full song)

sometimes i remember that i’ve actually watched the entire ishowspeed early stream in full. that shit should automatically enter the national film registry once it turns 10

Birbirlerine bağımlı olan insanlar, sürekli birbirlerini aldatırlar. Birbirlerinin arkasından konuşur, dedikodu yaparlar ama yüz yüze geldiklerinde hiçbir şey olmamış gibi sahte gülücükler fırlatırlar. Sırf yalnız kalmamak için bu acınası döngünün bir parçası olmayı kabul ederler. Bu gerçekten iğrenç.

🎶I’m gonna get fucked and beaten tomorrow 🎶

Kindest thing you can gift yourself is an absolute, unconditional love. The one that goes through all buts, concerns, counter-arguments, imperfections. The furnace of the heart that can smelt the steel. It’s love to your friends, strange and beautiful. It’s in the kindness to your possessions, that you mend, extending their longevity. It’s the love to the strangers, imperfect allies that deserve kindness for the fact of their existence. It’s the love to your city, scarred by bombing. It’s the love to the city that gradually becomes yours, for it is the stranger that deserves kind soul. It’s the love to the world, your old strange and beautiful friend. It’s kindness to yourself, through all imperfections and roughnesses. This love gives you forgiveness, and security. This love is stronger than fear. People, places, you, world, they all change and transform, through pain and abrasives, through love, through time, forged in fire. Yet, you are not afraid of changes for you will embrace each iteration of the ones you love.

Hey, here’s something I wrote: Chloe’s Ascension! It was more than just an average night for Chloe Citrine. Tomorrow was the day she turned eighteen; the day that she could finally ascend to become a fully fledged magical girl! The days of looking after her grandmother’s knickknacks and tchotchkes are almost at an end; soon it is the time for quests and battles! Chloe’s heart was racing like crazy in her body– as if it were participating in a prestigious track and field race. In less than a day, it was gonna happen. Now, all that was left for the girl in terms of her nightly routine was to head to bed. … “Child.” “Good mornin’, grammy.” “Let’s get right into it.” Okay, straight to the point. “You are now eighteen, which means the time of your ascension is nigh. You’ll succeed to the role of Citrine Captain , previously held by your mother, as well as myself. This is a very big deal, and is likely the most important thing in your life… probably. It’s been a while since I was eighteen…” “Yeah, like, five hundred years ago…” “Child, now is not the time for such frivolous comments.” Whoops. “Now, being a Citrine Captain is a heavy, difficult, and often life threatening role to play, but there’s more to it than just beating up monsters and criminals!” Oh? “Community! It’s just as important as righting the wrongs within the Starchipelago! Sure you can save the whole island time and time again, but if you do it because you can do it instead of out of the kindness in your heart, then what’s the point? And how do you build the kindness in your heart, you may ask?” ”By being a good girl and aiding those around me! Or something like that.” “It’s EXACTLY like that.” “Ah.” “Now, repeat after me. I, Chloe Citrine…” “I, Chloe Citrine…” “Pledge to protect the Starchipelago,” “Pledge to protect the Starchipelago,” “And help the community around me.” “And help the community around me.” “With a smile on my face,” “With a smile on my face,” “And my staff by my side,” “And my staff by my side,” “I shall lead a prosperous and fulfilling career.” “I shall lead a prosperous and fulfilling career.” “It is done. The first part, at least.” “…First part?” “Now, I shall bestow a very special tool unto you: the Citrine Staff! Passed on from generations of Captains, this staff is your new best friend, and your most powerful tool. Normally, I’d hand the staff over to you and explain how it works and maybe spar with you, but I just don’t wanna do all that!” That’s really helpful, grammy… “Instead, I’ll hand it over to you, and let you go out and about into town to see how it works for yourself! I believe hands-on experience is the best in this case! Now head to the basement! The staff is waiting!”

my new ac coming thrsdy. @drks0ul9