#pathways

the fantasy of you

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I don’t even play chess pero check mate na dama ine? Interesting play of events. Maybe it’s time to play some cards but this time in my favor naman . I don’t know. Let’s see. Abangers.

I Love Amelia Pathways 🇬🇧 🇬🇧

ride back home

No one talk to me. Birthday Massacre has a new album and it’s everything I ever could have hoped for.

not having strong enough beliefs to associate with nationalist goth girl anymore :(

I’m not married, but yesterday, it felt like I had a “Renewal of Vows.” Not with a man, but with my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I first prayed the Prayer of Salvation when I was in Grade 2. It was either in 2002 or 2003 when Tita Eva led me in prayer at our old house in Dasmariñas, Cavite. Back then, I had not fully understood it yet, but on February 18, 2006, I attended a Transformation Revival at COG Dasma. That was when I fully surrendered my heart and life to Jesus, hands raised and tears falling rapidly. I considered that my spiritual birthday moving forward. Yesterday, 20 years and 2 months later, we prayed the Prayer of Salvation again at Elim Communities’ Pathways Life in the Spirit Seminar, and I re-surrendered my life and heart to Christ. It was tough because there are parts of my heart that I feel scared to surrender, but I asked for the grace to surrender them. What they say is true: it’s easy to accept Jesus as our Savior, but the willingness to obey Him as our Lord is a different story. And that’s what I cried to God yesterday. Lord, help me to obey You as my Lord. Search my heart and cleanse my soul. Let all my thoughts be pure and pleasing to Your eyes. I surrender every struggle, and help put my complete trust in You. Some of my biggest takeaways from yesterday’s retreat: - God’s love is like an ocean, it has no end. - Even if we have let God down, He will never let us down. - The Holy Spirit is like a socket. We can plug anything into it and we will receive power in whatever aspect of our lives. Two of my biggest prayers were -being able to surrender my Dad’s life to the Lord, that I should not be anxiously forcing God to let him live up to 105 years old. I can still pray for that, in faith. But I should surrender to God’s will and be ready to accept whatever His will is. (so scared to pray this!!) -being able to wait for the right man God wants for me, in His perfect time, and keep my purity until marriage. I’m single since birth, but temptations are everywhere, and even the mind is a battlefield. But I pray for purity in every sense of the word—including thoughts and emotions. I also realized, whatever religion we’re in, what truly matters is having a personal and intimate relationship with Jesus Christ. In 2006, I was at a protestant church. Yesterday, it was a Catholic community. Guess what, same Jesus. I am so happy that there are also communities in the Catholic Church that are like the churches I grew up in as a child. I was born Catholic, then converted to Born Again for 15 years, then went back to Catholicism during the pandemic—but maybe that story is for a different post. Overall, I am truly happy with where I am now, and my heart’s longing is to grow deeper in my relationship with God—deeper than ever before. Since His love is like an ocean, we will never run out of new revelations as to who God is. We can never fully know the vastness of God and His Love, and that’s what makes it more beautiful. Lord Jesus, I pray You show me more of Your Love and teach me to love the way you love us. In Jesus’ Name, Amen 🙏 Happy Easter, everyone! Christ has risen 💞

Abschied

Inequality There was a balance to life. He knew that. Life wasn’t only about torture and drugging or having your creative processes stemmed and curtailed. The balance lay in choosing to imagine freedom. In choosing to simply imagine pathways of freedom then the freedom pathways themselves became part of your living. It was if you didn’t imagine them that they never had any possibility of life, of becoming part of your life. You had to train yourself. You had to learn to build on encouraging routine and feel that the chosen routine was bringing a path for you to follow.

thinking about desire paths. the whole concept of a desire path is predicated on the premise that there are sanctioned, official means of doing something. That we are supposed to follow directions and do as we are told. Desire paths allegedly show that we will break those rules if they interfere with where we want to go. Humans will do what works best for us, for what we need and want. But a desire path is just simply… a path. The same kind of paths that humans have carved out with just our footsteps all over the world since before paved roads were even a thing. The first roads were just desire paths. The first paved roads were desire paths that we evened out and laid stone or wood to make them lessy muddy, easier to walk on, easier to follow. But they were all desire paths nonetheless. Paths appear in our footsteps, marking out where we go. The planned and formalized path is the anomaly — not the track worn by many feet over time. idk man. thinking about pathways and rebellion and choices and rules and human nature. there’s a metaphor in here i don’t care to explain further. you get it though, yeah?

“UK Government: "Critical thinking is evil, and you’re an extremist for researching the truth.”“ — thelaughingmanofficial

In Hetalia, is Britain a male character? Can we ship him with Amelia? Oh man is this him? Dem eyebrows doh.. Come get yo mans girl