#aopenlettertomycrush

A Letter To My Crush

The first time I lay eyes on you I know I shouldn’t have felt the way I did, because at that time I was attacted to someone. I stared at you when you passed by just to always get a good look. You always look so clean and well kept. I can remember what you wearing. A polo shirt with some blue jeans with a black watch on your rist and your hair well cut you even look like you smell so nice, if only I got a chance to talk to you for some reason. You look like you had everything going for you, your bright brown eyes consume me, I couldn’t help but look at you. One morning I was so angry at myself because I realized that I was a cheater, I was cheating on my boyfriend at the time with wanting you, you walk into the office and my heart skip a beat ,I got so exciting seeing you, than seeing my own boyfriend. Than you came over and you spoke to me, my computer was down and it needing fixing, you were working in the prefect department for us to have relations, you came over and you took my computer and we starting talking. I remember you called me over to log in my computer and our first interaction was intense on my part. You had such a confident way about you, like you knew what you wanted. I remember I was so nervous around you that I just wanted to leave immediately and you told me “dont move five more minutes”now that sounded so sexual to me I couldn’t’t help but blush and I remember telling how it sounded to me and you said”what if I said it this way, don’t move five more minutes”and you put your hand on my shoulder and squeeze my right shoulder. I was taken from there, and there I think is where my ex boyfriend and I fell apart. You took over my mind and not soon after you took over my heart. So as I became single ,we became a lot closer I realized that you took an interest in my life and so did I with yours, I didnt want to ask to many questions because I didnt know what you thought of me exactly all I know I like spending time with you and you make me laugh. I started to share more things with you, till you open to me and said “any time you tell anyone this I would make your life miserable, I cant tell a girl how I feel about them im not accustom with rejection” now I found that so weird because I found you so attractive and you looked like you can get anyone you want. I know your personality is a little rocky at some times but once they get to know you and gain your trust your not so bad. So many people told me to put you down easy and forget wanting you but I can’t. But I can’t let go of someone who has been there for me when I needed someone to talk to, even though my heart is troubled in telling you how I feel. I have doubtful thoughts about your feelings for me. I dont think you would want a girl like me ,im not a size two or in any University or your same race. Now race dont matter to me but it might to some people. Im just a very simple , complicated wity girl,with lots of love and honesty who is maybe a little to emotional and thinks to much , wants to be romance for the first time in her life who wants to get this crazy thing call love right for the last and final time. But im just a friend to you, just your fluffymarshmallow that you like to call me. . Maybe I hope one day you read this and one day and finally know how I feel :)