#actually kill me

yk i thought my family would be pretty accepting of me if i came out bc they’ve always been pretty chill about it. my mom literally has two moms herself. recently though i’ve realized they’re only gonna be okay with it if i can be gay the way they want me to be. it’s like there’s rules to what i could believe or do or who i could be with and then literally what’s the point. my mom is so willfully ignorant about it as well. and then all of the religiousness added as well i’m not cut out for this

pls…. im so embarassed lol i created a new work to test out coding stuff and someone left a kudos. turns out there were ppl subscribed to me and it just sent out a notification….

my poems keep getting shorter I think ill js kms

i’m so sick of revision that i’ve decided watching house counts as biology revision for tomorrow

m literaly gonna cry today was so exhausting

DID things we haven’t seen people openly talk about Buying a snack for yourself at the store and the moment you get home and sit down to eat it, you blink and it’s fucking GONE. Making an elaborate dinner for yourself. Black out. It’s GONE. That shirt you like wearing? That shirt you were PLANNING to wear today? That shirt? Guess what! Someone spilt COFFEE on it! And that someone was “you”!!! HUZZAH!!! That sentimental item you didn’t want to get rid of? Guess what, fatass. It’s GONE. Another alter either threw it away, gave it away, or sold it because they didn’t have the emotional attachement to it that you did! Your friends? GONE. Teachers? KILLERS. /ref /j That friend you really liked and planned to hang out with? YOU SWITCHED WITH SOMEONE ELSE AND NOW THE DAY IS OVER AND YOU STOOD YOUR FRIEND UP BECAUSE OF YOUR STUPID DISSOCIATIVE DISORDER! Your very well-meaning friends and family? They always buy you gifts pertaining to things you have NO INTEREST IN! Guess why? (Other parts yapping about the things that they like to people when you couldn’t care less about said interests yourself)! YOU SIGNED UP FOR SOME BULLSHIT LIKE A PARTY YOU DONT WANT TO ATTEND OR LIKE STUPID BAKING CLASSES OR SOMETHING AND YOU DONT RECALL DOING SO! GOOD JOB!!

i have 3 consecutive exams tomorrow 😍😍 i love it here 😍 i can’t wait !!!

The universal experience of tryn to learn how to smile in the mirror at 2 in the morning

so im gonna need everyone to uninstall google and stop using it for searches rn or im killing myself fr this time. use duckduckgo or whatever fucking other search engine allows you to shut off ai

*THROWS CROCHET WIP* *Runs like hell*

i love my insomnia. #MyInsomnia

I finally got a fan. FINALLY. BUT ITS FUCKING BROKEN IAMAHWUQJCSHWQKUSGW FUCKKKK

mother issues hitting hard tonight

It is taking everything in me not to crash out right now

“One the funeral is finished everyone forgets” INCORRECT BUZZER get up little mourner you have a ton of paperwork to fill out (if you’re lucky you’ll still be doing it two years later!!)

I have a math exam tomorrow, a history exam on thursday, and a swedish test on friday

mental health is mental healthing

WOKE UP TO 9 AM ALARM, NO COFFEE MISSED STREETCAR, SMOOTHIE SPILLED IN MY BAG, HOT TO WORK LATE, MANAGER IS A DICKHEAD TO ME, AND ITS FUCKING EID

i just went through hell

ᝰ Some of these disorders do make me wonder if I’m actually stuck in limbo.