#Life

88 1. When was the last time someone saw you naked? I don’t know. Within the last couple of weeks, I’m sure. Sometimes I have to have my husband bring me things while I’m in the bath. 2. If you could bring someone back from the dead and spend an hour with them, who would it be and what would you do/say? My dad. He would meet his granddaughter, I would update him on life, and then I’d hug him and sob uncontrollably. 3. What is the greatest lost you’ve endured? My son. He was born 19 weeks early and passed in my arms. 4. How would you describe your current mood? Eh. So-so. 5. When was the last time you did something you were embarrassed by? Probably some stupid shit I said. I think out loud a lot, and sometimes those thoughts are fucking wild/weird and have people looking at me like I need to be locked away in a psych ward. 6. What was the last thing you lied about? I try not to make a habit of lying, so I have no idea what I last lied about. 7. Where is your favorite place to have sex ? In the bed. 8. What is your earliest memory? Having the needles of a cactus plucked out of my flesh. 9. Do you ever drink or get high alone? I’ll sometimes enjoy a glass of wine alone, but I don’t get high. Ever. 10. What type of a drunk are you? Giggly and talkative. 11. What song (or a few songs, whatever) means a lot to you and why? I’d rather not. 12. When was the last time you revealed your feelings for someone? Were they accepted or rejected? When my husband and I started talking. Initially, he wasn’t sure about us even though the connection and feelings were absolutely there. But, clearly it worked out because we’re still together 13 years later. 13. What was the reason behind your last visit to the hospital? I had a D&C with a hysteroscopy. 14. How do you tend to deal with a breakup? I haven’t experienced a break up in 14-15 years. I don’t remember. 15. What is the “worst” drug you’ve done? Are there any you will never try, or any you want to try? Weed. I am not and will never be interested in trying any other drugs. 16. What is something you’ve done that you truly regret? Nothing. 17. What does it mean to you to be a good person? Do you feel you are a good person? Just… don’t be a raging piece of shit and try to dictate what other people do with their lives. 18. What is your philosophy on life/how do you generally choose to live or conduct yourself? I don’t know, dude. 19. Do you view animals as being just as important as people? Why or why not? Yes. Animals deserve love and care, too. 20. When was the last time you were up all night and why? Last night. I couldn’t sleep. 21. What is the worst thing you’ve done to yourself? What is the worst thing someone else has done to you? Tried to kill myself. Sexually assaulted me for years when I was a child. 22. What is the most personal thing you’re willing to reveal ? Nothing. I’m good. 23. What made you stop talking to the last person you cut out of your life ? They weren’t putting in the same amount of effort that I was. Everything felt one-sided, so I stepped away. I don’t have time for fake relationships of any kind. 24. Is there a situation or person you haven’t been able to get over/forgive/what have you ? Yes. There are a few people who will never get my forgiveness. Fuck them. 25. Who was the last person to yell at you? Did you yell back? My daughter. She got in trouble and was not happy about it. I did not yell back. 26. Where did your last injury come from? My cat’s claws. 27. What are some kinks or turn-ons you have, if any? I’m not sharing that. Thanks for the opportunity, though. 28. What are you like during arguments? It truly depends on what was done to cause the argument. I can be extremely understanding, slightly annoyed, or I can be the most ruthless bitch known to man. Not many people have ever gotten the ruthless side of me. It takes a LOT for that to come out. 29. What is the worst thing you have said to another person? I may have told family that I wouldn’t piss on them if they were on fire. I don’t know. 30. Where do you like to be kissed ? Places.

87 Do you know anyone who has committed suicide? I didn’t know him personally, but the first neighbor we had directly under us at our old apartment killed himself. We heard the commotion when it happened and eventually got questioned by the police because they were initially investigating it as a homicide. Fucking wild, dude. He was a nice guy and I think about that shit constantly. Do you think Jersey people are annoying? No. Our neighbors are from Jersey and they are super nice. Does your mom think you’re a virgin? If she thought I was a virgin after birthing 2 children, then she had some issues. What do you think about people who party a lot? I don’t really care. What are you listening to? Listening to YouTube videos on my tablet while I do this. Are you the one that normally makes the first move? No. Do you currently work? No. Do you take any prescribed medication? I take one prescribed medication as needed. I quit taking all of the other ones because they weren’t doing shit for me. Have you ever watched a needle go into your own skin? Yes. Have you ever seen someone get a piercing/tattoo? Yep. Do you know someone that is/was abused by their parents? Hi. Nice to meet you. Do you like strawberry and banana smoothies? I do. Have you ever spent more than two weeks in a wheelchair? No. Does weed smell good? Or no ? I think it smells good. Have you ever played golf? I’ve played mini golf. Do you like beer? If so, what’s your favorite brand? I don’t like beer. Have you ever been pulled over for speeding? I don’t drive. Do you feel bad when you throw food out? No. I only throw food out if it has gone bad. What was the last wedding you attended? Friend of ours in St Louis. Are you religious? What do you believe in? No. I don’t believe in anything. What is your favorite video game? I have a few. World of Warcraft, Power Wash Simulator 1&2, Guitar Hero, etc. Just depends on my mood. Have you ever made your own pizza or pasta dough? I have made my own dough for strombolis. Are you lactose intolerant? Yes, but some things are worth suffering for. Does it take a lot for you to cry, or does it happen easily? I cry about everything. Do you tan easy? Nope. Do you have two of the same pair of pants? Not of my own, no. My husband and I have a couple of matching pairs of pajama pants, though. Do you know anyone with Type 1 Diabetes? Yes. Do you have a lot of pictures of you and your friends? Yes. What did you have for dinner last night? Spaghetti. Have you ever been rock climbing? No. Do you own a bean bag chair? Nope. Are you allergic to anything? What? No. Do you own any vinyl records? I have my dad’s entire collection, plus a couple of my own. Have you ever touched a caterpillar? Yes. Have you ever met someone famous? Who? Do tell! No one worth mentioning. Who else is in the room with you? No one. Do you think age matters in relationships? Sometimes it very much matters. What was the last thing you watched on the TV? The Lego channel on Samsung TV Plus. Where was the last place you went out to eat? Local japanese place. Are your nails currently long? No. I keep them short. I don’t like long nails. Where’s the closest church to you? Do you attend it? Some shitty ass mega church. I do not attend it, but my in-laws do. Dr. Pepper or Root Beer? Either/or. Depends on my taste buds. Favorite flavor of cream cheese? Strawberry. What US state would you like to visit? None, really. If you live in a house, how many floors does it have? If you live in an apartment building, how many units does it have? Our complex has 10 buildings. 9 of those buildings have 36 units each, and the last one has 2 units. Have you ever put on or lost a significant amount of weight? I have put on a significant amount of weight due to my health issues over the last several years. I hate it. On a scale of 1-5, how often do you curse? 10. Tell me something you like about yourself. I’m not a piece of shit. Do you prefer salty or sweet treats? I have a mad sweet tooth, dude. Do you have a favorite actor or actress? Not really. Are you or have you ever been a smoker? I smoked for 14 years or longer? I can’t stand it now. What are your favorite summer activities ? I love swimming, but I haven’t been able to the last couple of years. Have you ever taken an Uber or Lyft? Had to take an uber to one of my doctor’s appointments. I could only afford to get there, not back, and no one would help me. So, after my appointment, I sat in an unfamiliar city for 6 hours waiting on my husband to get off of work to come get me. Would you pay someone to kill the person who hurt you a lot? No. Have a best friend? Yes. I have a few. Have you or have you ever considered messing around with the same sex? What is your opinion on same sex marriage? I mean, I’m bi, so yeah. I think same sex marriage should be legal everywhere. It doesn’t fucking hurt anyone. Do you enjoy piercings & tattoos? Yes. Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morning? Night. Have you ever said you’d never love again? Yes. Did you like middle school? I don’t remember much about middle school. Have you ever hugged a complete stranger ? Yes. Where would you rather live, England or Australia? England. Have you seen the fucking spiders in Australia? Hard fucking pass. Did you go to your senior prom? No. I went to Jr prom. What was your first job? Fast food. Did your parents live in a different country before you were born? No. Are you happy with your weight? No. Does your job allow piercings or tattoos? I don’t have a job. Would you ever enlist in the army? Lmfao. Fuck no. How many kids would you want? I have 2. I don’t want anymore. Do you use Tumblr? What do you normally post? Obviously. I post surveys. I have considered making another blog and just treating it like an actual diary, but eh. Have you ever been accused of cheating? Yes. He was projecting. He was the one cheating on me. How about having an eating disorder? No. Would you ever go on a birth control pill? I have had birth control shoved down my throat for YEARS. “It’ll help this, it’ll fix that, you won’t bleed as much, your cramps won’t be as bad, blah blah blah.” Guess what? It didn’t fucking work. It did nothing except make me an irritable sack of shit. Just like I said it would. And now here we are, a week out from a hysterectomy because birth control isn’t the cure all that doctors think it is. :D Have you ever taken a train? No.

85 Was there anything that you planned to do today but didn’t? I wanted to start a load of laundry, but for the first time since I’ve been alive, there wasn’t enough to start a load. So, I’ll do that tomorrow. Is there anyone you interact with often on social media but not in person? Everyone, pretty much. What color box does your favorite cereal come in? White. Do you have any plates, dishes, mugs etc. with pretty illustrations on them? I do. We have a set of vintage Blue Willow saucers and I think they are beautiful. Does anywhere on your body currently hurt, or feel sore? My lower back. The pain has been getting worse the last couple of weeks, so I have been soaking in hot baths every night to help ease the pain. What is your favorite snack to eat with a hot beverage? It depends on the snack and/or beverage. Is there any advice you have been given, that sticks in your mind? No advice I have ever been given has been profound enough to stick in my mind. The only “advice” that sticks is the ridiculous shit that people say to me thinking they are being helpful or saying something life changing. “Just do like I did. Wake up and decide you aren’t going to be depressed anymore.” Golly gee willikers! If only I had thought of that 25 years ago! What’s the nicest advice you have ever been given about love/relationships? Again, nothing anyone has ever said to me has been profound enough for me to remember. Do you own any adult coloring books? What kind(s) do you like? I do have a few. My favorites are the adult themed ones with cute pictures. I have a coloring book full of curse words and cute animals, and a couple of pastel goth coloring books. When was the last time you got some new headphones? I haven’t bought new headphones or ear buds in years. I tend to take very good care of my things and use them until they inevitably fail. Is there a lamp in your living room? What color is its shade? There are 3 lamps in my living room. The 2 table lamps have white shades. the floor lamp has a cream glass shade. Do you know anyone whose name starts with the letter X? No. Have you eaten any rice or pasta today ? No. Name a food that you dislike the texture of . Cottage cheese. Which of your friends do you confide in the most ? My best friend from middle school. Have you ever fallen out of love with someone? If so, why do you think that happened ? Yes. He turned out to be an abusive, manipulative piece of shit. If you have pets, do you talk to them? . Sylvia is a fucking maniac and gets into everything. She is also extremely clingy and enjoys sleeping on and pawing at my boobs. Zavala is super chill and very sweet. He’s just an older guy who loves his naps. He’s stinky, though. (Edit: Thought this said, “If you have pets, what do you think of them?” I skim through the questions and don’t read them thoroughly. This will keep happening. Ignore it if you see it.) Are there any TV shows that you strongly dislike, but others seem to love ? Jersey Shore or anything in that genre. Is there anything you haven’t done lately, that you’d like to do soon? Not really. Do you own any T-shirts with brand logos on them? I don’t think so. Have you experienced any kind of food cravings lately? Not really. If I were to crave anything, though, it would be sushi. Have you watched or read the news today ? Every once in a blue moon, I’ll check our local news station’s website to see what weird shit has been going on across town, but I don’t seek the news on a regular basis. Describe the cover illustration of the book closest to you. That would be my daughter’s yearbook. It has a tacky ass picture of the school’s staff on the front. It’s ugly as fuck and I hate it. Laziest attempt at a yearbook I’ve ever seen in my life. I sincerely hate everything about her school. Are there any take-away or fast-food places close to your house? If so, do you ever order food from any of them ? Uh, I live in the heart of the city. Take your pick. Taco Bell, Cook Out, Dairy Queen, Chipotle, McDonalds, Burger king, Sonic, Popeye’s, Slim Chickens, Raising Caines, Little Caesars, Subway, Chick-Fil-A, Zaxby’s, Five Guys, Wendy’s, Arby’s, Rally’s… Is there anything happening tomorrow, that you’re looking forward to ? No.